People are soooo confusing!!!!
Boys more so..but that's besides the point :)
It really confuses me why life tends to hurt so much :(
It doesn't make any sense :/
Like...I know the whole thing about how the bad things in life are not from God, but if he can control everything why not at least take away some of the stupid little miserable things in life that suck so much that really don't have a purpose. I know that God has a bigger plan, but like, how does say..stubbing my toe make God's plan work?? That's kinda a bad example haha..but yeah!!
Ooh I think I'm gonna type out one of my poems that I wrote...I warn you..it's a tad on teh depressing side. I wrote it a while ago. Try and guess what the analogy is.
The Dark Place
I'm trapped
Behind invisible glass
With an imaginary lock
And a broken key
I'm not sure
If I can see beyond the glass
Because it is dark
So dark
I don't know where it ends
Or begins...
Or exists...
Or waits...
Incapable of leaving
Without abandoning myself
Abandoning my love
Abandoning my dreams
A hand reaches down
From time to time
I hold it for a while
Other times I turn my back
That scarred hand
Can save me
But my living hell
Holds me back
Even though it scares me here
The truth stands
I feel safe
Though fleetingly so
The pain remains
The hate grows it's rage
I sit staring...
Complacent...
My soul knows
I'm slowly killing myself
My heart welcomes the numbing pain
Hope departs
Giving up seem
The only possible solution
My decision tears at me
Secluding my conscience
It's the easy way out
That much is true
But this isn't working
And I'm surrounded by landmines
How can I leave?
When pain is my friend
Love is my enemy
The Hand is my...only chance??
If you can guess what the analogy is email it to me at rachiepoo2010@gmail.com :)
I'm gonna go pack for school tomorrow!! Later :)
Not so perfect :)
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